What Applause Are You Living For?

2 months…. TWO LONG MONTHS. Since I have posted. I was in the middle of a series- that I will finish in Gods time (he is …. I know he is… working with me on the words for part 3 and 4). Posts that have been outlined – but I let fear in. I let it in my marriage, my parenthood, my writing, my bible study, my teaching… and probably even my driving. I let a small fear of not being good enough filter into all areas of my life. Below I share a video and post I put on Facebook – that I also wanted to share with readers that aren’t on the Facebook.

I have been hiding a bit. I had a really bad ankle injury and 4 weeks later am just beginning to get back in my normal routine. It also made me realize how quickly I went from being ahead in work, at home, with this project – to being behind. Truthfully- I was feeling a bit defeated. I was (and still am) tired. Just that time of year … right…

I spent lots of time reflecting, resting, listening this weekend… I reminded myself I felt way more defeated years ago. I was still an AP and I was begging the Lord for a way out. At the time, I was the main provider for my family so I also felt kinda stuck. This continued for quite sometime. It wasn’t until a friend – asked how I was praying…. what was my prayer routine, did I journal ….I realized it was all wrong. She shared a prayer journaling method. I also attended a “retreat” with my HEARD and we really dove into the movie War Room and prayer. So, I prayed allot to find a new path. Prior to this, I NEVER prayed at work- to start the day, during the day, during a situation. I think as a public school employee I had trained my brain to keep Christ out of school. Well that changed. I prayed to work, at work, over my office, over the classrooms, on the way home from work, and while I drifted to sleep. I asked for wisdom and guidance for better balance, I asked for strength to accept my limits and lay the rest down at his feet. My world changed… my job didn’t in the least. My perspective did. Even though I am way better at it today than I used to be – I still can fall. LUCKILY he provides grace. During my reflection, studying, and being still recently- I found this video (linked below). It is geared towards teachers- but I PROMISE you WILL be able to apply it at your work place or your life too. WATCH – you will not be disappointed. https://youtu.be/uDAFEImfULg

“Live for the applause of the nail scared hands.”

WOW … let that sink in.
#ImNotCryingYouAre

Author: OverFlawed Mom

First and foremost a Christian woman, who tries to serve the Lord as a wife, a mother, and a teacher- stumbling through life filled with lots of laughter, some tears and countless flaws.

One thought on “What Applause Are You Living For?”

  1. Often when you let go, and let God the Holy Spirit, be the source of your inspiration…… then what flows is said or is not said can be left 100% in God’s Hands. Surrendering EVERYTHING we DO to the One who is higher frees us to BE what He desires us to BE to ‘others’ in this broken world. Peace! and Love. F.

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