For the Love of Flaws: The Weight Battle

First background note- when I am overwhelmed with thoughts- I tend to read and/or write. If I am overwhelmed with one particular person, especially if emotionally fueled, I write letters. They are not always delivered. 

I was reading through some sermon notes from Steven Furtick- this particular sermon was titled “Knock Knock”. It has been a tough parenting day and I was writing some notes and thoughts – and this particular sermon spoke to me in the moment and I used my notes to draft a letter that started like this…

You will learn living in a relationship with God you will be able to discern when God is knocking with opportunities and the right people. And if you don’t listen to that or fail to have a relationship with God, you will open the door to the enemy and people who may even bring you immediate feel good feelings – but it is destructive to your true relationships and  you will miss the opportunities that are best for your future.  We all want opportunities to come our way, and most opportunities are weird because they don’t always look like opportunities and you are waiting for the challenges to disappear and be free. But obedience comes before freedom and opportunities. The door is already open – you have to be obedient and go through it. Every second you spend waiting for something miraculous to happen- already happened. You just need to be obedient and take action and go through it to reach the opportunity.  

The letter went on to address some of the most immediate concerns. When I was done, I saved it and closed it. Something was bothering me and I initially pushed it out of my mind. I finally went back and re-read the letter. I had an ouch moment. This is an epiphany that hurts… but in a good way. It helps pave the next steps. I realized this is so so sooooooooo applicable to my battle with weight. 

I am not obedient to what I need to do. I choose to have emotions drive my eating or not eating (because it isn’t always what I put in my mouth- but some days its I didn’t eat anything). I battle with the balance between the two. I very rarely have a day that I can look at and be proud of the food choices I make. I may try to blame my schedule, not having enough help at home, or whatever- but I KNOW it is me. I am not obedient to the cries of my body and the knowledge of my head. I jump to open the door to the choices that make me feel good or better in the moment.  Amazing- in one of our toughest parenting seasons- I am learning more about myself that anything (and not just as a parent). So I am calling myself out- maybe that will add a level of accountability.  I am committing to a new game plan starting today.  I am very lucky that my family is very supportive. (They really always are). 

Confession – I know not “confession day” here on OverFlawed Mom.- but you have a right to know LOL. As I sat here, putting my notes together- I am craving nice warm fluffy pancakes. The only thing stopping me, is the fact that our house is small and I will likely wake someone or all up and would have to share.  Clearly my Ouch moment hasn’t really sunk in. #WorkInProgress

Too excited to wait- Fall Bible Study

Fall 2019 Bible Study for Teachers (and any school personnel)- focus will be LOVE: Unconditional & Transforming Love.

SPREAD THE WORD and invite your teacher, bus driver, school admin, teacher assistant, school cafeteria – any education friends.

Fall 2019 Bible Study for Teachers (and any school personnel)– focus will be LOVE: Unconditional & Transforming Love.

Since the school year is so busy the format is different from the current summer study.

September-November meet 2 times a month for discussions through Facebook Live. Each session will end with a reflection/goal activity take-away for the next 2 weeks.

Come as you are, you need nothing – but your bible (or bible app) and a journal.

Focusing our sessions around God’s Word and how to incorporate into the school environment:

  • Session 1 – Intro: Types of Love
  • Session 2 – Faith: The Power of Being Love Focused Instead of Task Focused
  • Session 3 – Hope: Loving in the Unloving Moments
  • Session 4 – Love: Love Never Fails, It’s Unconditional- Great what does that look like?
  • Session 5 – Self-Love: Last, But Not Least- The Unselfishness of Self-Love
  • Session 6 – My Love Plan... Life and Classroom

JOIN THE GROUP NOW (Go here: http://bit.ly/OFM-Love-Fall2019) – So you don’t forget in the hustle and bustle of the start of the school year.

OR Follow updates on my Facebook Page (https://www.facebook.com/overflawedmom/)

 

BFC #18

Parenting Touchy-Twenty-Somethings

Confession: I am not very good at stillness. (Bedroom food of choice today is Cheeto Crunchy… smh)

I have been struggling with a back issue. I have had many appointments with a wonderful chiropractor and we are progressing. With each appointment we take about 3 steps forward- and between appointments my back muscles take 2 steps back.  So it has been baby steps. I am not good at stillness for extended periods of time. I was caught up on rest (and laying is bad), but not caught up on all those home projects that get neglected during the school year. Usually, I am one who pushes through pain to keep going. However, since the pain has been so bad and progress so slow- I have been still not wanting to scare any progress away.  I really don’t like much tv, can’t seen to get into a book I own, and in denial about my soon starting school year work. I can be cranky between pain, tiredness (not sleeping) and frustration. I have been praying and diving into his word- I am sure I am missing a lesson in all this stillness. So here I am with orange fingers – and my progress on stillness is much like my back… 3 steps forward and 2-4 steps back.

New to Bedroom Food Confessions — Need to know what it is…. Check this out.

BFC #17

Parenting Touchy-Twenty-Somethings

Terrible Twos. Terrifying Threes. Ferocious Fours. A piece of cake. I am currently in the parenting season for what I am calling the touchy twenty-somethings. This season means you have to respect the space, yet provide a safe space. Give privacy, yet not too much so that it appears you don’t care. Give advice without being asked BUT only when wanted. Support their wondering lost-hood, yet don’t enable dependancy. Set expectations of “chores” to help contribute to the family unit, but set up in a way not to be perceived as a personal servant.  Requires you to sit and watch the mistakes they are making- sit quietly and not swoop in to fix when they ask.

This is the parenting season of quiet-hood… it can seem lonely – though I KNOW I am not alone. The current state of comparison (facebook, pinterest, instagram, twitter) leaves an image that all the other twenty-somethings are right on track. I look back at my twenties- even when it appeared I had it together – I didn’t, I was finding myself (still trying to find myself). I was one that had it together on the outside- but was a hot mess internally. With this reminder, I am working on sitting back and letting the tall one pave his way, what ever way he decides to try.

Confession: I am not very good at watching head on collisions happen and just sitting as they struggle to clean up the mess. I am praying allot (and eating some ice cream) as he figures out how to fly from the nest, yet again.

New to Bedroom Food Confessions — Need to know what it is…. Check this out.

July Journal Challenge

Get a journal – a pretty one. an old one. It doesn’t matter. I hope you will join me in the July Journal Challenge. Take 5 minutes of your day to journal and reflect on how the creator made you – perfectly flawed.  What you need….