BFC #16

Confession:¬†Yes, right off the bat- right to the point. I had a post ready to be put up today- A bit more serious in nature for my typical bedroom food confessions, but true. It has been nagging on me that it wasn’t quite ready. I struggled yesterday that I was allowing my self doubt to take hold and guide me. I unscheduled the post and scheduled it and unscheduled it. LOL. Then last night something happened – that has given me a flood of thoughts to marinate and add to that post. IT WILL be posted- but not today. ūüôā Stay tuned… surrender to God’s timing … No Self Doubt today (well at least on this topic).

New to Bedroom Food Confessions — Need to know what it is…. Check this out.

BFC #15

So our oldest left for basic training in the Air Force today (actually last night).  I. Am. A. Mess. We. Are. A. Mess.

Confession:¬†I am a hard mom. I have high expectations – within reach- but high. I usually don’t waver. This has led to ¬†my kids – knowing that I love them – but not accustomed to touchy, feely, emotion, filled moments. I am the calm – balanced one. So today – the “tall one” leaving – hit me like a ton of bricks. Surprised all of them and quite frankly me. ¬†Don’t ask how I am – know I am a mess- but holding it together and surviving… but please don’t ask, strangely those are the moments I loose it.¬†Seeing him leave on this adventure – has filled me with so much pride. However, so hard to “set him free” and trust that God is watching, protecting, and guiding him.

Isn’t it funny – if you think about it parenting is just one hypocritical moment after another. Our youngest is 8 – we struggle sometimes with his desire for independence completely – and his ability to do some things (like cook his dinner). We can’t wait till he can do this on his own just one night a week – yet in the last 72 hours I have cooked anything and everything under the sun for the “tall one.” When they are young you can’t wait to have a moment where they aren’t yelling ‘mama, mama” and when they are older you miss hearing just one “mama, mama”, “hey you” …anything LOL.

As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.

Isaiah 66:13

Confession 2: I may or may not have ended up sleeping with the youngest last night- just to watch that angel face sleep Рwhile there is still room for both of us.

Not sure I have enough chocolate stock piled in my “bedroom food.”

New to Bedroom Food Confessions — Need to know what it is…. Check this out.

For the Love of Flaws … and Writing

To be honest, for the longest time I hated writing (and reading for the most part). As I walk through this life on Earth, I have come to love expressing the 1001 thoughts in my head through writing. By writing, I encourage myself to keep growing and learning. I am stimulated by learning and growing. The greatest growth I have had, is while purposefully journaling. I am not the best with this day to day. But when I look back, these moments held some of the biggest epiphanies, strongest moments of being at peace without understanding and have become an important thread in the quilt of my testimonies.

 We proclaim to you what we have seen and heard, so that you also may have fellowship with us.

1 John 1:3

So with that I have created a monthly challengeРto help hold me accountable and hopefully give direction to someone needing it. The monthly challenge will focus around quick 5 minute daily journaling. July 2019 challenge will focus on self discovering and finding the joy of the miraculous design of our flaws. I hope you will come along with me. I will post the 30 day calendar at the end of June. I also invite you to hop over to my facebook page Рwhere I will post daily the prompt and invite you to share or learn from others sharing.  I am really excited about this new addition to my little corner on the inter-webs.

 

BFC #13

So grab your bedroom food… I am currently savoring a few mini Hershey milk chocolate easter eggs.

Not such a news flash … I have flaws. In the last few years, I have been working on embracing, laughing at and loving my flaws. ¬†The official definition of flaw is a mark, fault or imperfection that mars a substance or object. Clearly the person who wrote this was not comfortable with the perfect design of our flaws by the Lord.

ConfessionРI REALLY struggled with this for a VERY long time EVERYDAY.  Luckily, it is only a struggle sometimes now.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalms 139: 14 (ESV)

I am flawed in so many ways. This is how I landed on OverFlawed Mom years ago – when this idea was just a fleeting thought that made me toss and turn at night. Yes I am over flawed – and I thanks the good Lord most days for every flaw he designed and will use in one shape or form. My prayer for you this week – is that you are loving your flaws.

For the Love of Flaws… and Trying.

So I am a little to excited these days… I have some exciting things coming for the blog / community… OK community may be pushing it at the moment… my little small town on the interwebs. BUT before I share the new and upcoming- I wanted to share a little of the history and why of OverFlawedMom.

Background:¬†Back in the day- prior to kids, prior to marriage- I had a blog to journal and share experiences in the world of school administration. About 4 years ago, I had placed on my heart STRONGLY (like lost sleep over the voices), to change direction. I found every excuse in the book – the main one being time. As a school administrator, I worked … ALOT. I was married and we had 2 kids. I couldn’t imagine finding the time to write with a focus on the Lord- targeting moms and teachers. I prayed and prayed. Long story short – all of a sudden a classroom teaching job was- pretty much placed in my lap. I took it and had great plans and content planned to debut last summer (2018). Well, life happened and my focus day in and day out needed to be on my family. ¬†To be honest though – I was angry, I had the time and even had content developed. I wasn’t angry with the battles we were facing (another story for another day)- but angry at the timing. Sitting here today- I know this was the path I needed. The content needed to be tweaked, I needed the experience, wisdom, victories, and faith the storm provided.

“Yesterday”- So at the start of 2019…¬†I fell on the one word band wagon. I choose the word courage. I defined that as, 2019 a year to accept fears, release the past, and live my courageous life through Christ. Honestly, I was doing everything to avoid the very definition I crafted. So, I had the privilege to serve on the book launch team for¬†Do It Scared, by Ruth Soukup. The timing, (his timing) was perfect. What I learned is my¬†primary fear type is – Self-doubter.¬†Followed closely – in a three way tie – Procrastinator (perfectionist), Rule Follower, People Pleaser. (Shocker for those who know me LOL).

“Tomorrow”- So in the name of Courage…With the start of June -This is what OverFlawedMom is going to look like:

  • Continued with regular (more regular) posts:
    • Tuesday Series: Bedroom Food Confessions (See post here and here¬†to explain the joys of Bedroom Food)
    • Thursday Series: For the Love of Flaws
  • New:
    • Starting July 2019 – Monthly Christian Themed Challenges (More info to come Thursday June 5)
    • Seasonally Bible Studies for Teachers (or anyone – but will have classroom ties and applications) – First one starts week of June 10. More info to come Monday June 3.
      • Note- To start with, I am not¬†writing¬†these, I am leading the group study, using and tweaking current materials to fit our needs.
    • Facebook Page for more random thoughts ūüôā

I am so up-cited….. (not a typo- this is the next level of excited). I hope you will come along with me. To stay up to date on happenings, I do encourage you either follow OverFlawedMom on Facebook here or sign up for emails on my Contact Me Page.

So in the words of courage and trying…

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9

This it one of my favorite verses – as I know now- as a self doubter… so fitting.