Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven. Psalm 107: 28-30
Over the course of the next 4 posts, I am going to share a story… a testimony if you will. 4 stages of a storm I never saw coming. A storm that seemed to hit every single angle of my life and attempted to demolish it to a point that one would wonder if it even exsisted. I am not going to lie, these upcoming posts encompass the hardest yet most rewarding, most painful yet peaceful moments, scariest yet most faithful days to date of my earthly walk.
Before I begin to share my perspective of the journey- I need to reiterate this is my perspective, my journey. And as such, may leave out details that isn’t part of my story to share.
I also, felt it necessary to share my today. To let you know that the light at the end of the tunnel was beautiful daylight- not an oncoming train. Many look at storms in life, the bumps in the road, and wish they hadn’t happened. I however, wouldn’t trade the storm in for anything. Sure I wish some of the pain I had experienced didn’t hurt as bad. Sure I wish for a smooth road, but I honestly can say that as I sit here today…
“So I’m thankful for the scars Cause’ without them I wouldn’t know Your heart And I know they’ll always tell of who You are So forever I am thankful for the scars”
From Song Scars
I hope through my sharing you will see…
“The weapon may be formed but it won’t prosper . When the darkness falls it won’t prevail, Cause the God I serve knows only how to triumph. My God will never fail. I’m gonna see a victory. For the battle belongs to You Lord.”
From Song See A Victory
…. Our God never fails, you will see a victory- you will see the war truly has been won.
PS – My love language is music – so I have also found a song or two that spoke to me during each stage and wanted to share. Today- at the light at the end of this tunnel –
Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
Matthew 17:20 (NIV)
Y’all (needed a little southern twang) …. so many projects and in the last week I have seen God’s hand in Every. Single. One. He is moving mountains. I didn’t post this week like normal because I was working on the things. LOL. I am so excited how mountains have been moving this week – not just for the blog, but all things. So. Thankful.
Here is a glimpse into things coming up:
- For the Love (Thursday posts) — NEW 4 part series coming about my category 4 storm survival (or at least in my current perspective cat 4).
- Part I: Rest and Praise
- Part II: Release and Surrender
- Part III: Restoration and Grace
- Part IV: Re-Establishment and Joy
- August Journal Challenge – I hope you will join me in the July Journal Challenge. Take 5 minutes of your day to journal and reflect on how the creator made you – perfectly flawed. What you need….
- Fall Bible Study- Unconditional & Transforming Love – Will have some connection to the classroom/education… BUT can be applied at any work environment
- Will meet 2 times a month (Sept-Nov) for a total of 6 sessions. Meetings will be through Live Facebook Discussions (with goal/reflection take-aways)
- Session 1 – Intro: Types of Love
- Session 2 – Faith: Love Focused Instead of Task Focused
- Session 3 – Hope: Loving in the Unloving Moments
- Session 4 – Love: Love Never Fails… It’s Unconditional
- Session 5 – Self-Love: Last, But Not Least
- Session 6 – My Love Plan… Life and Classroom
- Go Here to join closed group Fall 2019 Bible Study: Unconditional & Transforming Love. Join by Aug 9th to have opportunity to vote on day and meeting time (eastern standard time).
Hope you will join me in one or more …. Invite friends. So excited for the mountains (mainly the mountain of my fear) being moved.
First background note- when I am overwhelmed with thoughts- I tend to read and/or write. If I am overwhelmed with one particular person, especially if emotionally fueled, I write letters. They are not always delivered.
I was reading through some sermon notes from Steven Furtick- this particular sermon was titled “Knock Knock”. It has been a tough parenting day and I was writing some notes and thoughts – and this particular sermon spoke to me in the moment and I used my notes to draft a letter that started like this…
You will learn living in a relationship with God you will be able to discern when God is knocking with opportunities and the right people. And if you don’t listen to that or fail to have a relationship with God, you will open the door to the enemy and people who may even bring you immediate feel good feelings – but it is destructive to your true relationships and you will miss the opportunities that are best for your future. We all want opportunities to come our way, and most opportunities are weird because they don’t always look like opportunities and you are waiting for the challenges to disappear and be free. But obedience comes before freedom and opportunities. The door is already open – you have to be obedient and go through it. Every second you spend waiting for something miraculous to happen- already happened. You just need to be obedient and take action and go through it to reach the opportunity.
The letter went on to address some of the most immediate concerns. When I was done, I saved it and closed it. Something was bothering me and I initially pushed it out of my mind. I finally went back and re-read the letter. I had an ouch moment. This is an epiphany that hurts… but in a good way. It helps pave the next steps. I realized this is so so sooooooooo applicable to my battle with weight.
I am not obedient to what I need to do. I choose to have emotions drive my eating or not eating (because it isn’t always what I put in my mouth- but some days its I didn’t eat anything). I battle with the balance between the two. I very rarely have a day that I can look at and be proud of the food choices I make. I may try to blame my schedule, not having enough help at home, or whatever- but I KNOW it is me. I am not obedient to the cries of my body and the knowledge of my head. I jump to open the door to the choices that make me feel good or better in the moment. Amazing- in one of our toughest parenting seasons- I am learning more about myself that anything (and not just as a parent). So I am calling myself out- maybe that will add a level of accountability. I am committing to a new game plan starting today. I am very lucky that my family is very supportive. (They really always are).
Confession – I know not “confession day” here on OverFlawed Mom.- but you have a right to know LOL. As I sat here, putting my notes together- I am craving nice warm fluffy pancakes. The only thing stopping me, is the fact that our house is small and I will likely wake someone or all up and would have to share. Clearly my Ouch moment hasn’t really sunk in. #WorkInProgress
I love my perfectly flawed marriage.
Yesterday marked 10 years of survival LOL- our marriage is far from perfect. Far from facebook, instagram, pinterest worthy.
Our marriage consists of:
Days filled with hope and days filled with doubt.
Moments of silliness and moments of seriousness
Days Cleaning and Days Making a mess … I mean memories
Moments of Arguing and moments with Sweet Love Notes
Days filled with sweet conversations and Days of silence
I cant imagine spending 10 more years with it any-other way. Because no perfect marriage exists- but we are both Loved by a God who guides us and provides us with grace as needed. The truth is, I don’t want a perfect marriage- I want a good, realistic, lasting one. One where we grow as individuals and as partners. I once heard love is being able to be stupid together- I am so grateful for our stupid moments and looking forward to many more.
Fall 2019 Bible Study for Teachers (and any school personnel)- focus will be LOVE: Unconditional & Transforming Love.
SPREAD THE WORD and invite your teacher, bus driver, school admin, teacher assistant, school cafeteria – any education friends.
Fall 2019 Bible Study for Teachers (and any school personnel)– focus will be LOVE: Unconditional & Transforming Love.
Since the school year is so busy the format is different from the current summer study.
September-November meet 2 times a month for discussions through Facebook Live. Each session will end with a reflection/goal activity take-away for the next 2 weeks.
Come as you are, you need nothing – but your bible (or bible app) and a journal.
Focusing our sessions around God’s Word and how to incorporate into the school environment:
- Session 1 – Intro: Types of Love
- Session 2 – Faith: The Power of Being Love Focused Instead of Task Focused
- Session 3 – Hope: Loving in the Unloving Moments
- Session 4 – Love: Love Never Fails, It’s Unconditional- Great what does that look like?
- Session 5 – Self-Love: Last, But Not Least- The Unselfishness of Self-Love
- Session 6 – My Love Plan... Life and Classroom
JOIN THE GROUP NOW (Go here: http://bit.ly/OFM-Love-Fall2019) – So you don’t forget in the hustle and bustle of the start of the school year.
OR Follow updates on my Facebook Page (https://www.facebook.com/overflawedmom/)