BFC #8

Bedroom Food Confession 8

Confession:  I struggle finding balance in my work life, family life, and bible study. I crave more time to study and dive into his word. I am happy with the increased family time- and even though it is God guided – I crave more time in the word. 

Question: Have you found any form of balance in this area? Once you fall in love with the word- do you ever really stop craving more? What are your thoughts and/or questions in this area?

Feel like you are missing something … Wondering what is bedroom food… See this post Bedroom Food Confession #1

 

For the Love … of Tears

Crying in church. Every. Time.

I have an aunt that cries all the time. I love her – she is more than an aunt. She is my sister, friend, spiritual guide, aunt, therapist, and the list goes on. Crying comes natural and from my perspective easy.

I am not that person. I don’t cry. I just don’t. It isn’t that I choose to not cry- I have days I want the tears to be released and just flow. Just maybe that will solve the current struggle.

In the past year, however, I cry at church. Every. Time.  This was worrisome to a degree. Now,  I know it shouldn’t cause great concern, but it did. As simple as that- it did. I would have a great Sunday morning and walk into church willing myself, convincing myself that I had absolutely no reason to cry. I am so very blessed. I would leave the service with watered down eyes.

Ecclesiastes 3:4 (NIV) a time to week and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance … a time to tear and a time to mend…

My story of storms in the recent year(s), honestly, left me utterly broken. Fallen, unable to get up, unable to do basic daily life… but blessed because I feel at his feet. What a great landing place. As I redefined my life, with my new scars and embracing some new flaws. I am a child of God – and the scars from the storm – really have hit home in my heart – with because  of my scars and flaws- how much grace, love, guidance, understanding has been poured over me by God daily. I don’t mourn every Sunday. My eyes well up, my voice cracks complete overwhelmed by this realization. He did restore what I thought I lost. He drew me near. He ran to me. When I couldn’t fly- he carried me up the mountain. He listened to my cries, my prayers, my unspoken pleas- he gave me peace in a storm- that couldn’t have produced peace. He gave me strength. He loved me. He loves me. The unmeasurable gratitude that fills my spirit- I redeclare my love for him. I redeclare my desire to forever be his. To forever love him. To feel that, especially in his house – brings on the tears.

For. The. Love. Of Tears – Every thankful Sunday … and quite a few days in between. 

 

BFC #7

Bedroom Food Confession 7

Bedroom Food Confession of the Week – I would TOTALLY trade in my secret stash of candy for a mini coffee barista fairy. Truth. Without. Hesitation.

Feel like you are missing something … Wondering what is bedroom food… See this post Bedroom Food Confession #1

 

BFC #6

Bedroom Food Confession 6

I strongly feel that I have grown significantly in the realm of self-control throughout my life. I am human- so I have moments. Bedroom Food is probably a good indicator that I am attempting to keep my control. I realized this past week – I have way more self control in all environments – EXCEPT the interstate one the way to and from work. Why is that? I wondered in a “moment” if I should have bedroom food in my car to help prevent the things that come out of my mouth. I have realized that I have have very little grace for those driving crazy on the interstate. Why is that- why can I give (or try to give) it in so many areas- but it NEVER occurred to me that it is also needed to give on the interstate.

Confession:  It would not be safe to have bedroom food in my car. I wouldn’t have any control in that environment. 

Feel like you are missing something … Wondering what is bedroom food… See this post Bedroom Food Confession #1

 

BFC #5

Bedroom Food Confession 5

I have am trying to cut out sugar (except fruit). My bedroom food options are 100% fruit based snacks. This wasn’t working when I really craved or needed a bedroom food moment. A friend once shared that brushing her teeth helped to curve cravings for junk food. The logic was nothing tastes quite right immediately after brushing your teeth and your mouth feels clean so, who would wants that peanut butter cup.

Confession:  I have brushed my teeth at least 17… ok more like 6 times today. 

PS Confession: I would have still eaten a peanut butter cup… immediately … without hesitation, if I had one.

Feel like you are missing something … Wondering what is bedroom food… See this post Bedroom Food Confession #1